• I’m tired of losing friends

• I’m tired of fighting.
• I’m tired of being lied to.
• I’m tired of drama.
• I’m tired of crying.
• I’m tired of never being happy.
• I’m tired of trying so hard, and have it be one sided.
• I’m tired of being bitter.
• I’m tired of being used.
• I’m tired of not sleeping.
• I’m tired of missing people.
• I’m tired of hiding my feelings.
• I’m tired of missing you.
• I’m tired of trying.
• I’m tired of being tired.

Assalamualaikum , HEY HEY HEY HEY HEY ! Guess what , im checking on my formspring , and i got this question from an Anouymous , which sounds like this 


: SALAM , hey , what important facts that a guy should know about girls in a relationship . (izzat) 


So izzat , who are you anyway ? give me a link ! Well , here is my answer , the facts is according to me . 


Okay.. so this may not be true for ALL of the girls, but most of them are for me and I thought it was sweet =D

•  Stay on the phone with her even if shes not saying anything.
•  When she's mad hug her tight and don't let go.
• When she says she's ok dont believe it, talk with her.
•  Call her at 12:00am on her birthday to tell her you love her.
•  Call her before you sleep and after you wake up
•  Tease her and let her tease you back.
•  tell us we look beautiful, we sometimes really feel down on ourselves and just need someone to say to us that we look beautiful. We really like it if you do. ( i dont think of this way )
• let us mess with your hair, its fun for us. 
•  If you are in a group of other girls with your girlfriend, make it seem like she is the only one you are interested in talking to. 
•  Pay attention to them. Girls will tell a guy they trust anything. Even if you don't care about what shes saying, at least pretend to be paying attention.
• If a girl is clearly upset, don't ignore it and hope it goes away, talk to her and ask her about it . If she says " Nothing, i'm fine," but its obvious shes not, don't just say okay.. keep asking because that's what they want.
• Girls will tell guys they love anything, so don't betray that trust. If they tell you something and they say don't tell anyone, don't. Or else you will lose that trust . And even if they don't say " Don't tell anyone," still, just don't. 
•  Girls don't take fighting very well. They either get really sad.. or they get pissed . So, don't start fights. They could just end up with "FINE". 
• Don't ever lie to us; we always find out. 
• Girls are pretty, but yours is ALWAYS the Prettiest! 
• It's good to be sensitive, sometimes. 
•  If you did something wrong.. 
• APOLOGIZE. 
•  We are self-conscious by nature; we can't help it. 
•  Don't make bets about us; we will ALWAYS find out. 
• Don't try to be controlling- that's so lame. 
•  Don't cheat you freaking losers. If someone doesn't make you happy, LEAVE THEM! Don't cheat. COME ON NOW! 
•  Its not the big things, the big gifts, or the big surprises that mean the most- ask any girl (that isn't a money hungry cow)…and she'll tell you that its the small, sweet things that mean the most. 
• If you know, or have a feeling, that a girl likes you, don’t EVER make fun of her, or say anything bad about her. If she finds out, she will be very hurt, and start thinking stuff like “how could I ever think I had a chance with him”. It keeps her thinking about that one thing forever, and it doesn’t make you look good either.
•  Don’t show off, it’s not cool. Looking stupid is cute, and girls would much rather that, than you trying to show off.
•  When it’s obvious a girl doesn’t look her best (it happens to all of us), say she looks pretty, especially if she is your girlfriend- although, it’s nice too even when she is just your friend OR if it’s pretty obvious the girl spent hours looking good for you, give her compliments - little things like that mean everything. ( no comment )
•  Yes, It’s true, it’s cute when guys show their emotions.
• Give her compliments, such as "your beautiful", and "your gorgeous", and "your pretty". They mean a hell of a lot more than, "damn girl you are fine", or "you’re hot!" AND don’t feel stupid saying it either. Really. We do prefer the first ones better. (no comment)
• WE LIKE BEING CALLED GIRLS, NOT CHICKS, SHAWTY, HOTTIE OR ANY OTHER STUPID NAMES YOU HAVE. UNLESS, its some cute little nikcname or something you gave us, those are cute  .
•  Writing poems or songs for girls, really is the sweetest thing ever. Even if it looks like a three year old wrote it, it still is cute.
•  If there are pictures of you two together or something, it IS always cute when you make it your display picture on msn. Or your profile picture on facebook, myspace, or any other account you have. (no comment)
•  If there is a picture of you and your girlfriend together, and she comments on it and says she loves you, SAY IT BACK. OR be the first one to say it, it makes it even better that way.
•  When the time comes to break up with a girl, do it yourself, and do it in person. Let her down NICELY, and always explain why. NEVER ever get someone to do it for you. You may think it’s the way to go, for less tears and just making it easier for her, but trust us, it isn’t..
• It’s hard for a girl to admit she likes you. So when she does, don’t act grossed out.
•  If you like a girl, TELL her. And don’t be afraid too. In most cases, girls are extremely understanding, and would really like to know who likes her and who doesn’t. It might even turn out she likes you back.
•  always stick up for a girl, especially if it’s a guy picking on her. It shows a lot in a guy.
•  Don’t mess around with our hearts.
• f you like us, you like us. If you don’t, then you don’t. Make up your mind, and don’t take ten years doing it.
•  When a girl did something, that obviously made her feel stupid, or embarrassed, don’t make her feel even more stupid or embarrassed. Comfort us, and tell us its okay.
•  Girls get jealous. Very easy, though she might not show it.
•  We think you are just as complicated as you think we are.
•  when we say we are ugly, or fat or whatever, we aren’t waiting for you to agree - we are waiting for you to say, "NO you’re not fat, at all your perfect" or" NO you’re not ugly, your beautiful, don’t ever change."
• When we like you, you are all we ever think about.
• Make the first move. Sometimes, the girl is too shy to.
•  If you JUST meet a girl, and you’re saying gross sexual things to her, and she says something like, “go die” or “stop talking to me” leave her alone, she means that.
•  If we hang up on you, call back. If we continue, then you continue. 
• Act like a real boyfriend should in front of your friends. It DOES impress us. 
•  Girls love it when guys act shy. (not speaking for all girls, I LOVE it!)
• When we say we love you, 100% of the time, we mean it with all of our hearts, and want you to mean it to.
• . If a guy is bothering her, it is your right to beat the crap out of him.

Haha , thats my opinion dude , goodluck on whoever you're picking on . :P  

Assalamualaikum ,

15.4.2011

Today , is the day , when i was born 15 years ago . Kini , aku genap 15 tahun . yeah , aku sudaa tua , tahniah tahniah . Orang yang pertama wish aku bila genap pukul 12 , Amirul , then lilianne , then Danial , Bila bangung pagi , pergi surau balik tu aku pergi kelas piano , cikgu piano wish , Then pergi class potert Nisha wish , thanxx for the keychain kiddo ;)

Then Farhana antar mesej , then Nenek call, ucap birthday . thanxx love ya granny . Patsu balik rumah , buat kek , and chocolate ball , letih gilaaaa , pastu sepupu datang , aku pun tak nak kacau , mak layan la tetamu , aku tengok tv , deorang tengah makan bihun . aku pulak termenung depan tv . pastu deorang balik nak dekat maghrib . aku pun letih dah , kami ptong kek , 3 orang ptong sekali , me , syikin , sarah . Sebab me and syikin b'day 15 &16 , so sambut sekali . Sarah sambut awal becuz , b'day dia nanti mak tak de . so , its a triple b'day celebration :) . Aku dapat kad dari sarah dan syikin , Thanxx gegirl :)

And thanxx to bloggersss , Emailerss , and especially FACEBOOKERS .  80 wall posts , and 23 Facebook messages :) thanxx alott ! I LOVE YOU GUYS SO MUCH . 


Do i sound happy :\ ? YES .

Azwa : i'm sorry , photos will be upload for the next post . HARAP MAAF 

Assalamualaikum


HAHAHAHA , hari ni akan aku catatkan hari yang tak dapat aku lupakan . :')  FIRST , Hari ni kat lab ada EXPLOSION , hahaha , sulphur react dengan zinc apabila overheated . bukan satu , 2 pulak tu , mula mula kumpulan christine , n then kump. Yan Xing pulak . HAHA , memang cantik letupan tu . Ada flare warna hijau .

SECOND , aku kena PRANK . yeah , aku diberitahu yang Aufa akan pindah sekolah 2 minggu yang lepas , aku sedih . Hari ni kononnyaa , majlis perpisahan , aku rasa kenapa aku jadi tumpuan , sepatutnya aufa. pastu aufa bagi surat , aku ingatkan surat selamat tinggal ke hape . rupa2nyaaa , dia tulis . " Akk , adik minta maaf adik tipu akak , adik tak pindah pun . :) "  aku kena tipu . AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA . HAHA , aku tak percaya betoi . Deorang semua tipu aku , semata mata nak suprise aku .:') First time aku kena Prank .Ya , aku akan ingat untuk SELAMA LAMANYA . Aku nangis bgai nak gila tadi , terkejut +geram + terharu +gembira . pelik pelik . Pastu deorang pujuk aku , bagi hadiah kat aku . Nanti aku cerita kat korang esok . Masa perjumpaan koperasi dhanyaah tanya kenapa , aku pun cerita la , disebabkan aku exited + geram , aku pun jerit macam orang gila kagi . Kak Aifa and Kak Atirah tengok aku pun gelak . hadoiiiyaiiiii . Anis Shahirah , Aufa Akashah , Farhana Munirah , Siti Noor Farhana , Aini Salina , thank you for being there .agagaaa .Aku Sayaaangg korang sangat sangat , you make my day , you just blow away they grey clouds over me :)

THIRD , masa aku balik tadi , mak aku buat CHOCOLATE ! yay ! tak sabar nak tengok . Mak tanya , nak ape hadiah ? aku penah mintak nak luruskan rambut , tapi tak jadi ah , Aku sayang rambut aku , FIRM . Atad lurus , bawah cute culrs , bersyukur dpat rambut ori macam ni .Aku masih buntu nak mintak ape . huuhuuu .

AZWA : So, 15 , here i come , wait for me , i will live you to the fullest , :) 

Assalamualaikum ,

Hey guys , wassup ?  hope you guys are fine . Me ? just suffering rite here . wait a minute , not me somebodyelse .  Please take care of your self . man , ur driving me nuts ! i can go crazy , just thinking bout your condition . i just wished i can talk to you rite now . Hoping that it will make you feel better . Will it ? maybe , i dont know , im not me when theres no you . Its a strange feeling . im so tired ,, but i cant sleep , i keep getting the nightmares bout you , and what had happened . Its scary .



TAKE CARE .

Ya Allah ya Rabbi Ya Karim !

jangan salah paham , bukan aku yang xident brek mengejut . Aku yang terkejut , Demam ! sepanjang malam aku tak tidur , aku tak tau , selalu aku boleh tidur bila dekat pukul 3 atau 4 pagi . kali ni , dampai pagi tak tido . aku letih , tak larat . tiba2 , dapat shocking news . ya berita yang membuat aku terkejut tahap gaban , smpai mnangis. .
Im sorry i cant be there for you :'(  .

Assalamualaikum !

Nampak tak gmbar atas atas tu ? yah aku tau korang nampak . korang bukannya buta . aku tengah sakit hati . sampai hati dia buat kami macam ni , erghhh , Ya Allah , bukakanlah pintu kesedarah dalam diri sahabatku Ya Allah , aku mohon .

tak nak la cerita bebanyak . nak cerita pasal KELAS JAYA DIRI . ceyh , bunyi macam kelas yang high class . memang high class , untuk pelajar yang tak siap kan kerja sekolah . sepatutnya, nama dia Kelas Tahanan , tapi cikgu bagi alias , supaya bunyi galmer sikit (glamer la sangat) penekanan yang agak berat di berikan kepada pelajar form 3 and form 5 !  Hari ni tak de Geo , tapi sebab kan cikgu suruh siapkan nota salin , kami kena korbankan masa PJ !  MANA ACIII ! ( macha' aci kat india ! ) mehehhe . Masa PJ tu terbuang macam tu je . bukan ape  , aku bukannya nak PJ , aku tak nak turun padang , aku nak tido ! ngantukk la .  -..-  .

Oh ya !
Drama hari tu , berjalan dengan tak lancarnyaaa . aku sebagai narrartor dan director yang ketar2 kat atas stage tu , cakap laju jer , macam pelesit . ada orang cakap mcam rap pun ada -.- . ada orang cakap tak pham apaaa pun ,. nasibla , asalkan deorang paham draam aku tuh , aku syaang pelakon2 aku ,

• Afatin
• Fatini
• Elia
• Akilah 
• Natasya
• Dhanyaah 
• kyryll 

Azwa : School ? not much ! 

Assalamualaikum ,
aku gelisah , resah , tak tentu hala , aku ta tau nak luah kat spe . kawan ? nope . Adik beradik ? nope . Mak Ayah , nope ? . BENCI BENCI BENCI . kan bagus  manusia yang dicipta sebji seperti aku , yang hanya memahami diri aku , yea , nak tunggu seseorang yang sanggup dengar luahan aku yan tak beberapa betul  belum tentu dia terima .

BLAAAHHH BLAAHHHH :'(

AZWA : KAU MERENG EYHH ?

Assalamualaikum . OH NOO . haha , tadi baru balik dari jemput adik adik dari Tae Kwan Do . yea , kenapa aku cerita ? ni yang aku buat tiap2 minggu ! Sebab kali ni aku jemput deorang JALAN KAKI  saja , yeah jalan kaki ! kul 9:45 malam , lepas Sir Hakimy balik . hehehe . sebab kereta x de ayah sudaa bawa pergii .

Weyh weyh weyh ! hari kena panggil ngan pengetua ! ohhmaaannn , i was like so damn scrared . Perut rasa memulas . Rasa macam nak muntah pun ada . oh nooo . Masa dalam bilik mesyuarat , Puan Mahaya punya muka macam nak telan orang .

" Kamu tahu kenapa kamu dipanggil di sini? " dia cakap . btw . bukan aku sorang je ada 20 orang .  "Kamu adalah PELAJAR KUMPULAN CEMERLANG  tahun 2011 PMR. "   Aku macam WHAT THE .... yeah . ini bermakna , aku tak boleh lengah kan masa aku untuk bermalas malasan . Aduii . STRESSS . arghhhhh .  oh nooo . PfffTT .

hah hah hah . nak bagi tau ni , buat pertama kalinyaa , Aku pergi tusyen , sejak form 1 tak pernah hadir mna2 tusyen center . Aku tusyen dekat Inisiatif utama , kebanyakan budak Badlishah kat sna T_T . masa aku mula2 datang aku duduk . masa balik tu masa semua orang bangun , pergh ! aku boleh cakap , yang aku paling pendek kat situ , kenapa warga2 badlishah tinggi ? fuhhhhh . aku macam semut ! perempuan lelaki , semua nak dekat sma tinggi mcam cikgu zubir , (180cm> ) gila ah ! aku pendek ! aku terbantut !  T_T  . warghhhh .

Azwa : Skipping punya banyak pun tak de maknanyaa , anda pendek , terima hakikat